Well I was, then I wasn't.

I had the best Monday every. I found out I was pregnant, and I was flying on cloud 9. Then, a few days later, not so much. I was pregnant for a whole 5 seconds, but it still hurts. Chemical pregnancy. Those words suck. People say that if I didn't test before my period was due, I wouldn't have even known. Well, what if my period isn't always on time? What about if this becomes a recurring thing and I need some hormonal help in the 2ww? I guess my charting, and testing early would have helped me figure out a problem. OR I'm completely normal. Only time will tell.

My hubs has been amazing. He was beyond thrilled when he found out. Wanted to see the tests for himself because he was so excited. He made me drive them to him so he could look at them. I went to his work, showed him the tests in our car, and he just smiled and kissed me. I'll never forget the look he gave me. Such adoration in his eyes. I gave him the outfit I got him. Nascar is NOT my thing by any means but it made him happy. I'd do anything to see that smile of his.

Now our hearts are breaking. We know this is the way it is supposed to be. Natures way of giving us the baby we are meant to have. I truly believe that. A bottle of wine later, I am ok.
I came home to dinner, a full glass of wine, and flowers. I couldn't ask for a better husband. I hope I can give him a baby soon. I pray that next cycle is ours.