Today. May 8th, 2010.

This was my old EDD. I should be having or planning to have a baby today. I dealt with the loss ok I think, as well as anyone could. However, I never in my most pessimistic dreams believed I'd get to this day without being pregnant again. Life fucking sucks and its the furthest thing from fair there is.

I have to take a minute to thank someone very special to me. I have many friends in real life and on my message boards that make this phase in my life easier and are always there to lean on. Today, one of my internet friends, who I have met and has become very important to me, was thinking of me and sent me the most beautiful tulip arrangement. I couldn't have smiled harder through tears as I did when I saw them and read the note. Thank Mrs.Bro. You are truly one of a kind and I'm like to have you in my life. XOXO