So, the lap was yesterday and it went well. So well, that they didn't find anything. NOT a thing. In my RE's words, clean as a whistle. I am certainly still wondering if my ute moved around anymore in there, since it didn't in my HSG, but I have yet to speak with him so stay tuned. I know I should be happy there is officially nothing wrong with me, yet I am still struggling with that. So in my crazy mixed emotion state, I made a list of my frustrations and why I should be happy.
Why I am frustrated:
1) If no endo, why the hell is my ute all the way left of my spine (which can be normal), but what wasn't normal, was why it didn't move when they tried to tug on it during my HSG?? Like I said, stay tuned for this answer.
2) I feel as though this was a waste of time. I could have just waited to see if we were or were not successful after a few months of trying before doing it. I didn't HAVE to do it. I guess I just didn't want anything standing in our way, and feel as though we've waited long enough to have our baby.
3) Why in the hell do they not have better technology that they can't officially diagnose this any other way? In the words of my brilliant and beautiful friend Christina: "They can put a man on the moon but can't frigging find a better way to confirm endo?! WTF." EXACTLY.
4) Now this puts all the burden on one person.
5) I feel awful that I wasted a day of my mom's vacation, not to mention caused worry in her, my hubs, my family, and friends.
6) I'm just a statistic. All the classic signs and family history, but no endo. Makes me feel like a hypochondriac.
Why I am happy or should be happier:
1) There is NOTHING wrong with me. I'm 100% normal and fertile. Or should be fertile.
2) I lost 4lbs from the bowl prep.
3) We can start TTC as soon as AF comes, which should be in about 8-10 days.
4) I really have no pain right now. Not that they did anything to cause it, but looks like I'll be back on my feet sooner than expected and ready for my wine festival (WOOT!).
5) I'm the good kind of statistic. All the classic signs and family history, but no endo.
6) Hubby has his check up next Monday, and we will find out when we can get the SA done to check his results.
Oh well. It is what it is, right? In the end its better that I had it done so I know that I did everything on my end to have our baby. Hopefully good things are to come in the next few months! Here is the plan: We will TTC "the good old fashioned way" for the next 2-3 cycles. I truly hope we can get ourselves knocked up this way. It would be wonderful for the hubs to see how worth the surgery was, although he is already glad he did it. IF not though, he is fully comfortable with moving on to IUIs. We were given the choice of IUIs or IVF, but I think we'll stick with IUIs to start. Wish us luck!!
Edited: I just spoke to my RE's office. They said that the discrepancy between the 2 tests is most likely because under anesthesia, my muscles were more relaxed, and allowed my ute to move all around. Good news in the end is that my ute is not scarred down and better be ready for a baby :)
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